louise mckenzie records

laying in bed 

all day

i lost feeling in my feet 

i should get up

but I think

id rather

it would just start

radiating upward 

until the static 

consumed my whole being 

finally taking hold 

of my mind

and blurring that out too 

so at least it’s not so bad

when it comes to kill me

because I’m already asleep

maybe this is 

what dying is like

just becoming

less and less

until there’s nothing left

of me

worth noticing

or any feeling worth

hanging on to

did i mention

im scared

of anesthesia